Odds stacked: Dealing with reality

Finally, I am back home with my bestie not being dickmatised, I honestly I will call it beardmatised caused recently I been dickmatised and Whoa! Just Whoa! I'll save that story for another time. But yes, I am home away from all the mess of my first semester in college and I got the chance to think straight and to run things over with my   bestie... You guessed it my brother Gabriel!! So I'm telling him everything from the fact that I think Clint has a girlfriend to what classes I loved. Did I forget to mention I thought he had a girlfriend in the previous instalment. When you thought I couldnt get anymore naïve... Haha! I never cease to amaze. So I was going through his phone (I was not snooping) he was showing me some pictures of a dinner or God knows what he actually went to, and while he was going through the pictures with me I realised he's matching with this other female. He stops and its like he is bracing himself but I was soo committed to this we jut fucking role,

Where was I going to stay now? Really wish it was Skyscrappers but I have no phone because I had to rush to the airport. I guess I will have call this person who I believe is my friend. Truly up to this day I dont get our relationship, I dislike so many things about him, yet if I am dying they would be someone I will tell the paramedics to contact because I know they will be there immediately. I probably should mend our relationship, in due time... Anyway where was I? Right! Looking for a hall to stay on. I decided to call him and as usual he came through and helped me out, everything was in full swing and to my surprise my dad paid the accommodation. I was ready to take on the world. As I entered the dorm, exhausted, I looked for my room out of the eight rooms. Then entire flat seemed to be occupied it was just me to take up my newly found position in life. The place was buzzing with excitement, wait I am lying. One room was buzzing with excitement which happened to be the room

Life started off for me in 2013, just after graduating high school and I had absolutely no fucking clue what I would do with myself. I filled out applications to some of the most prestigious schools in Lopynia and actually got in. But knowing that you wont be properly well taken care of by you life givers is just a huge turn off especially when all the numbers are 6 digits in pounds. Also filled out an application to one of the regional institutions, halfway because it had a registration fee and my both parents wasn't on that, despite what they might tell themselves. I had no boyfriend to be attached to except that one mixed Asian guy I was too dark for. Never had a passion for anything really, all I knew back than is that I wanted to be someone's wife. Have two kids and be in love and live happily ever after. I kind of also tricked myself into liking Marine biology because my school sent me to an on the job training programme where we looked at small ass organisms that tol