Chapter 4: No Fv@king Way

Now that we're fully caught up let’s return to me peeing in buckets and organising timeframes. By the way my homemade pregnancy test was negative, no fraught. Oddly that day my bestie was coming to take me out. So, I told her what was happening, and we went straight to the pharmacy and bought a test and I took it immediately. Phew! One line, I could relax now... One week had passed and still no period, this was odd even for me. I got myself another pregnancy test, took it immediately and this one was positive. In that moment I had no distinct reaction, I called Gabriel   and told him what is going on and he responded congratulations, this was his way of saying you're definitly having this baby. I must say I have the most supportive brother in the world yet still I couldnt internalize the news. Now how was I going to tell Clint after I told him off... I know exactly how. Sigh now I was in a sticky situation.

I took my terribly pixilated phone and snapped a picture of the pregnancy test then I pressed send over CommuniApp, with no words just that picture. Can you imagine his response...? It was something like what the fvck is that and without giving me the opportunity to respond he began to call. I waited for the phone to ring out and told him I dont think I a ready to talk just yet and I am pregnant. He responded in caps ANSWER THE PHONE! Well you know I really couldnt have told him no, so I did. Looking back now he probably thought I was fine with the situation I answered the phone so calmly I guess I got accustom to being in shitty situations. He asked if I am ok and how I felt really and truly nothing new when it comes to him being concerned, I mean it what I fell for. You know having daddy issues and all. So, he asked how far along I thought I was, so I told him it must be about two weeks and I expressed to him I will talk to my mother and see what occurs. I also reiterated I won't be having an abortion which he said he knows and he will be there for me till the end. He began giving children names he insisted that the baby was a girl and gave names, I was nice it made me smile to know that we can be friends and take care of the baby to come. Those words were comforting especially what had been occurring in my private life.

Well I am sure you guys remember that bishop from Octina who had created a lot of issues for me to get to Lizbenburgh, which East Prim College was in right! Well now we were living in a house with my mom and this married man (not to my mother I must state). On a Friday I remember so clearly my mother asked me if I wanted to go to the clinic with her because she wasnt feeling to well and well I took the opportunity to go see a doctor to just double check my status. Let’s take note I haven’t told my mother yet or anyone other than my brother to be exact. It was finally my turn to see the nurse and I informed her my situation she made me do a taste and informed me well the protein levels for a pregnant person is lower than usual, but you are pregnant. She confirmed my theory that I seemed to be recently pregnant. While I waited for my mother to finish up I thought about how I could finish school pregnant and the girls on my flat from what I heard didnt like me. Did I want to carry my pregnant self into that type of environment but if I stayed in Cratia, Clint wouldn’t be able to be a part of our lives. Seeing that I was a child I concluded I need to tell my parent what is taking place so that I can have a wholesome and sound advice (seemed like a smart decision right!... WRONG).

 Eventually my thought was cut short as she exited the office and motioned for me to come to her as we were ready to leave. While sauntering to the car she quickly says she's pregnant at this point I was completely and utterly confused. My mother, pregnant for a married minister of God, what complete folly is this. Well at that point I replied well I’m pregnant too... I mean since we all were sharing better I got it over with. She really didnt have any emotions but she did say I need to speak to the bishop. I shrugged and said ok and thankfully the drive was short back to our home. I went directly to my brother informed him what happened throughout the day. We laughed at the way I broke the news to her and we were a bit concerned by the fact that she was pregnant for that man.

During our bonding period my mother and the bishop showed up, my brother and I both looked at each other as though we were telling each 'we are in some shit now'. We can all guess why they were coming to speak to us. Basically, it was to tell us not to tell the members of their church that she was pregnant for him and well to give me an ultimatum. My ultimatum was either I abort or I dont go back to school. I was in a between a rock and a hard place. My slight vacation proved to me that they will not taking care of Gabriel and myself. Plus, I already to Clint I was coming back to finish the year of school and I am not aborting. I was still so impressionable and fearful to make my own decision that would put me in a situation to not be assist monetarily. So, at this point I am pondering abortion something I will know will break my very soul. After this man made his decision someone who wasnt my father, wasnt my blood didnt do anything to get me where I was just made things worst I was waiting for my mother’s input. I was waiting for her to put him in place, stand up for me, let him know where to get off but she just sat there looking at the ground. I could have understood her behaving that way if he was the breadwinner, but he was using all her money, she was taking all the loans to ensure he can fly in and out of cratia to octina. Trust me when I say it wasnt cheap. At this point I believed what was left of my mother had died. I sat in disbelief and Gabriel seemed to be most confused which was odd for him. The bishop continued to say that I should go for an ultrasound to see if I am even eligible to get an abortion. (if I only knew what I know now then... It would have been an entirely different ball game). That same night I told Clint what they said, and he told me when I find out what they want to do I will let him know.

Well I had no choice but to agree unfortunately the next problem was the length of time it took for them to give me the money to go this ultrasound. You know most parents would move as quickly as possible despite the age of their child. I know parents whose children are married, and they are working for their own money and they behave like it’s the end of the world when they have a cold. Anyway, after about a week I was on my way to the ultrasound specialist. She asked me how far along I thought I was I told her about 3 weeks she said to me if you are so early I would have to check u internally but before we do that I would try to see if we see anything externally. I complied by raising my top up then she placed a cold gel like substance on to my tummy. This was followed by the device she used to see the fetus. To our surprise an embryo could have been clearly seen from the size of the fetus I was 9 weeks pregnant. That means I got pregnant when we had that slip up. But How? We are way pass that question. The real question was how was I going to raise a child when no one took the time to raise me??

You see the little legs <3

My eyes widened, and the lady glared at me and said... 'Please don't throw away this baby, my husband and I have been trying for years to have a child... No schooling could replace that void.' I looked at her and said I have no intention to. She smiled, and I was on my way to update everyone which was I guess I am not going back to school because I am not aborting. The person who shocked me the most with their reaction was Clint.

Can you guess Clint’s reaction?

P.S. I know I been missing in action, but I had an action pack two week so please accept my out of schedule instalment Thank you all for still tuning in to odds stacked. Dont forget to like, share, comment and follow I look forward to hearing you guys.